
I finally succumbed to my urges on the weekend and had a meaningless fling. Meaningless because there wasn’t any emotional connection. She was there and available. I wasn’t physically attracted to her either, not that it would matter much anyway when there’s a lack of emotional intimacy.
It was mechanical and I was just going through the motions. It felt surreal like I was watching myself in third person. My senses were numb too, as if I was feeling by proxy. It felt ridiculous. I even had an internal monologue happening for a while when I caught my reflection in a mirror:
What are you doing here? Do you know how ridiculous you look?
I went into the situation with no expectations and I left it without a sense of satisfaction. It felt only marginally better than if I had done it alone. I would like to think that I’ve ended my drought but in a way I don’t think I have - I still feel the same-old.
I’ve always felt that sex is only good when there’s an emotional connection. This experience has only served to confirm my thoughts once more.
“Sex without love is merely healthy exercise.”
In that sense, at least I had a good workout.
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26 Responses to “Meaningless sex is just dull”
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Jul 24 2006 / 7:08 pm
OMG OMG OMG
*heart attacks and dies..
Well, at least you’ve tried it out - and realises that you are looking for an emotional connection and not just a meaningless fling.
We always think that the easiest way to end a drought is to just go out there to get some - there is never a shortage of playmates.Trust me, you are not the only one. At least now you’ve been there and done that, and it’s time to move on to more ‘meaningful’ things, n’est pas?
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Jul 24 2006 / 8:59 pm
“Sex without love is merely healthy exercise.”
Robert A. Heinlein
I beg to differ.
SAFE sex without love is merely healthy exercise. Sex without condoms and love is an easy route to self-destruction.
But really, no sex is better than bad sex. As fun as flings may be, the reality is, gradually they gnaw at one’s sense of self-respect and respect for others.
Sucks right… No sex = sexual frustration. Have sex (with no emotional connection) = also frustrated.
Tsk. Such is life.
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Jul 24 2006 / 9:23 pm
Well, you’ve gotten what you’ve been craving for (if I may say that) and realised that it’s not what you are really after…
Are you still craving for more?
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Jul 24 2006 / 9:50 pm
speechless …
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Jul 24 2006 / 10:14 pm
Well, tell me abt it, i just had sex this week without love (paid escort), but at least there’s frenching involved. So its still very lustful. She spend time chatting wif me.
To think of what i did 2 mths ago was worst. A gal (friend) i was close to, well she dun believe in luv. She wanted me to be a F buddy (coz she’s real practical) So we had it, but no kissing involved, gosh it felt worst than paying a hooker for sex. Really…. I felt so USED.
We, men do seek love .. not just meaningless sometimes. But u know wat, love sucks sometimes. So.. hell just go out and get some paid sex. At least, the working lady make u feel loved. (yeah i may be cheap going for a hooker, at least u know its all just lust, but at least it beats having a emotionaless/meaningfuless sex wif a gal you really like). So yeah.. Mooi says it best –loving someone who cant love you back, is more lonely than being alone
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Jul 24 2006 / 11:51 pm
“Sex without love is an empty experience, but as empty experiences go it’s one of the best”.- Woody Allen
but hey, to each his own aye. btw, that’s awful load of things going through your mind during the motion….so yeah, maybe you’re really not made for it
hope u’ll find what you’re looking for! -
Jul 24 2006 / 11:55 pm
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Jul 25 2006 / 1:31 am
sexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Jul 25 2006 / 7:58 am
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Jul 25 2006 / 11:36 am
wah liew …. ! and women thinks men only want sex !
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Jul 25 2006 / 1:12 pm
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Jul 25 2006 / 2:56 pm
well, i can considered this as a confession!!??
maybe you were thinking too much while doing it thus unable to “enjoy it”.
paid sex was never 100% enjoyable or whatsoever, it do depends.
maybe i could enlighten you if you do meet me when you dropped by here.
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Jul 25 2006 / 4:06 pm
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Jul 26 2006 / 1:47 pm
Wow, so you finally ended your drought!! I’m guessing it was a random girl you picked up at a club?
I agree, that sex is so much better when it’s with someone you love or really care about and there is that emotional connection. otherwise it’s just sex. really, that’s what seperates us from the animals. while we do have the same sexual urges, humans crave love and physical affection whilst animals don’t.
btw, the worst is not just random anonymous sex but DRUNKEN random anonymous sex. when you are pretty much too pissed to feel anything at all and can hardly remember it the next day! fun stuff! -
Jul 26 2006 / 1:59 pm
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Jul 30 2006 / 12:26 pm
::empathise::

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