I’ve said previously that meaningless sex is just dull. That sex without the emotional connection is like a fast food meal – it will satisfy you then and there, but it leaves an empty unfulfilled feeling after. Though now, I’d like to add a caveat to that. Meaningless sex can be great if the physical attraction is strong.
This thought hit me quite suddenly late Saturday night when I was feeling lonely in a sea of people, in the din and loud music of a nightclub.
I was wondering why haven’t I felt anything for anyone for so long? Then I remembered that I did have a strong feeling for someone which led to the best sex that I’ve ever had. But it was with someone whom I didn’t really fancy as a person at all. However, the strong physical attraction was such that it overrode any other considerations. In other words, it was driven by pure lust.
No relationship came out of it, and the empty feeling did come back after. But at the time, it reinvigorated me and I was smiling for the next few days. However I must say that I feel ambivalent that the best physical relations that I’ve had was not also with someone whom I connected with emotionally.
Maybe that’s why I suddenly felt lonely when I’m not alone. And maybe I shouldn’t be having alcohol whilst having these thoughts.