These days I am …

  • content with my job, money, social life, friends, family and my dog,
  • happy because I’m content,
  • apathetic because I’m happy and content,
  • which makes me somewhat self-centred or at most, makes me care only for my immediate circle of friends and family.

That’s my current state of mind.

And because of past disappointments, I will myself into not hoping for too much of anything, or from anyone which means I’m cynical. I don’t expect people to be perfect so long as they don’t do me wrong. If they do do me wrong, then they’d probably not feature in my life anymore. Which makes me not very sentimental at all.

I’m so cynical and I don’t care what others think of me that it’s easy to be self-confident. Which makes it easy to not have to rely on material things to feel worthy, or to prop me up. I don’t eat or drink because of depression, though I do eat to be happy.

And I certainly don’t need another person to complete me, or to make me happy although that would be very nice. At least that’s what I keep telling myself anyway, when I’m not too busy feeling content, happy, apathetic, self-centred, cynical, unsentimental and confident. ;)