Lately I’ve been finding myself fantasising of a woman that I have met. She’s very different to what I have previously thought that I liked. And I may see her more regularly in my social outings from now on. Right now, I am treating it as a crush because it’s still too early for anything. But I have been thinking a lot about her and it’s kinda exciting and scary at the same time.
You see, it’s been 4 years since I’ve felt anything similar for a woman. Although I wasn’t really broken-hearted the last time, I did go into a mild depression. Very unlike me. That was because I stuck my neck out and took a gamble, and didn’t get what I wanted. Which is why this feeling of having no control over my thoughts makes me feel vulnerable. Exhilirating though.
I might just flirt outrageously and see if she makes the first move. She’s the kind of woman that would do that. Yes I’m chicken shit and yes this is wishful thinking. But for once, I would like a girl to do the asking. 😉